It has been 7 whole days since my last cigarette. The Chantix is working! Believe me, it is not will power that has gotten me this far. If I had to rely on that, I seriously doubt I would have made it 24 hours. My willpower is nonexistent over cigarettes.
It's strange how the Chantix works. I still think about cigarettes a lot. I just don't necessarily desire one every time I am thinking about them. My trigger times are still stronger- when I finish a meal, riding in the car, after work, and first thing in the morning. As a matter of fact, I have woke up the last two mornings without the alarm clock at 4 AM due to that used to be the time I would get up and smoke. Even though I think about cigarettes a lot still, I don't want one, 99% of the time. It is odd and yet a miracle that a pill has been created that can perform such an amazing transformation.
I have no doubt that with time the memories and thoughts of cigarettes will subside. For me, it is like giving up a friend. Someone I turned to in times of stress, celebrated a good meal with, said farewell to a workday with. It wasn't just about a need for nicotine, there is an emotional component that Chantix cannot fix. I am having to deal with that on my own. I find myself wandering, not knowing what to do with myself at the times I would have been smoking. I miss my friend............but not that much to have him back.
Friday, April 22, 2011
Saturday, April 9, 2011
I'm Back, and it's About Time!
I apologize profusely dear readers to my extended absence. First it was depression, then an extended vacation, next, I was simply out of the "groove". I promise not leave you hanging like that again, and I hope that is a promise I can keep!
Tuesday I saw my psychiatrist, and I finally got approval to take Chantix!!!!! You see, with taking all the psych meds that I take, I have a higher than average potential to have the negative side effects associated with Chantix. Like depression, abnormal behavior, thoughts of suicide, all the good stuff ya know. I have smoked since I was 14 years old; that is 34 years of damage. I feel that my chances of lung cancer grow each year, so the benefit outweigh the risk. I feel very confident that I will be able to quit using Chantix, I have before and it was easy-peasy.
Yesterday was Dad's 73rd birthday! Nearly 3/4 of a century. Born in 1938, when gas was $0.10 a gallon, the average price of a new car was $763.00, Adolph Hilter was Time Magazines Man of the Year, Seabiscuit takes the Roses and beats War Admiral, the first Superman comic was issued, radio was "Hot", and Evil Knievel was also born on this day.
A quarter of a century later, in 1963, it was a most memorable year. Dad became a father for the first time, Martin Luther King Jr. gave his "I Have a Dream" speech, the President John F Kennedy was shot, a gallon of gas was $.029, the average price of a new car was $3,233.00, the Beatles released their first album, a tsunami in Bangladesh killed 22,000 people, the tape cassette was invented for audio recordings.
Fifty years after Dad's birth, in 1988, he saw the World Wide Web become a household word, the Hubble telescope go into orbit, the price of gas was $0.91, the price of a new car was $10,400.00, the Iran-Iraq war was over, Time's Man of the Year was Planet Earth-Endangered Earth, and an earthquake in Armenia kills 60,000 people.
Present day, a gallon of gas is $3.59, the average price of a new car is $28,400.00, cellphones are the new computers, the first black man, Barak Obama, has been elected to the Presidency, the US is at war and in civil action with half the planet, the world is on the brink of financial crisis, Time Magazine's Man of the Year is Mark Elliot Zuckerberg (Who? The inventor of Facebook, What? A Social Network on the internet).
Dad, what will you see in the next 25 years? Let us know on your daily and I will copy and post here!
Tuesday I saw my psychiatrist, and I finally got approval to take Chantix!!!!! You see, with taking all the psych meds that I take, I have a higher than average potential to have the negative side effects associated with Chantix. Like depression, abnormal behavior, thoughts of suicide, all the good stuff ya know. I have smoked since I was 14 years old; that is 34 years of damage. I feel that my chances of lung cancer grow each year, so the benefit outweigh the risk. I feel very confident that I will be able to quit using Chantix, I have before and it was easy-peasy.
Yesterday was Dad's 73rd birthday! Nearly 3/4 of a century. Born in 1938, when gas was $0.10 a gallon, the average price of a new car was $763.00, Adolph Hilter was Time Magazines Man of the Year, Seabiscuit takes the Roses and beats War Admiral, the first Superman comic was issued, radio was "Hot", and Evil Knievel was also born on this day.
A quarter of a century later, in 1963, it was a most memorable year. Dad became a father for the first time, Martin Luther King Jr. gave his "I Have a Dream" speech, the President John F Kennedy was shot, a gallon of gas was $.029, the average price of a new car was $3,233.00, the Beatles released their first album, a tsunami in Bangladesh killed 22,000 people, the tape cassette was invented for audio recordings.
Fifty years after Dad's birth, in 1988, he saw the World Wide Web become a household word, the Hubble telescope go into orbit, the price of gas was $0.91, the price of a new car was $10,400.00, the Iran-Iraq war was over, Time's Man of the Year was Planet Earth-Endangered Earth, and an earthquake in Armenia kills 60,000 people.
Present day, a gallon of gas is $3.59, the average price of a new car is $28,400.00, cellphones are the new computers, the first black man, Barak Obama, has been elected to the Presidency, the US is at war and in civil action with half the planet, the world is on the brink of financial crisis, Time Magazine's Man of the Year is Mark Elliot Zuckerberg (Who? The inventor of Facebook, What? A Social Network on the internet).
Dad, what will you see in the next 25 years? Let us know on your daily and I will copy and post here!
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